this blog has ceased to exist.

and don’t try searching.

no, i’m not talking crap.

some people intrigue me.

some people annoy me.

some people amaze me.

some people amuse me.

some people appeal to me.

some people just disgust me.

and don’t even think about it. piss off and leave me alone and i’ll fucking pick up the pieces and clean up the mess i made.

was it you who spoke the words

that things would happen but not to me~

WATCHED ENCHANTED. LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT.

too bad fairytales never happen.

to the moon and back.

always one foot on the ground.

because i have nothing to say.

imagine a shell. insipid and anchored but nevertheless existing.  you crack it open and it’s hollow. empty. void.

and you wonder, what’s the shell for?

people call me lydia. but you can call me tonight.

do you believe in love at first sight or do i have to walk by again?

1000 things

And I’m overjoyed and I’m over loved and feeling lucky
like a little boy who’s just, who’s hiding under covers
and looking to discover any way to play the part inside his darkened cave
the meaning of life it starts at the nightlight
close your eyes and hope you see mine

And I’ve, well I’ve seen a thousand things in one place
but I stopped my counting when I saw your face
erasing memory well I feel as though I’ve never seen a face before
until I saw your eyes, and they’re smiling back at me through my tears
I’ve been counting all these years, oh
Now suddenly the thousand things I’ve seen were
nothing more than dreams of
of you and me

you and me quietly at a standstill
fortunately you will,
well you’ll kiss me and I will kiss you back
and the fact of the matter of is
and I don’t know what the latter is, oh no way
you see I always wanted to kiss you but
I always wanted to run from you
Because I always wanted to miss you
And I always wanted to come for you

What I love are my comfort foods, you said,

So… how do you do?

-jason mraz

haider.

The fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it’s to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You’re close enough to see that
You’re the other side of the world to me

men’s rules.

(stolen from joyce’s blog. well..sort of.)

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You’re a big girl. If it’s up, put it down. we need it up, you need it down. you don’t hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
2. Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are special days, but not quests to see if we can find the perfect present yet again!
3. Sometimes, we are not thinking about you. Live with it.
4. Do not ask us what we are thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as navel lint, the shotgun formation, and golf shots.
5. Sunday=Sports. It’s like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.
6. Shopping is NOT a sport, and no, we are never going to think of it that way. It will never make an Olympic event (although we could be wrong on that, the way they instituted women’s hockey & wrestling)
7. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine. Really.
8. Crying is blackmail.
9. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work. Strong hints do not work. Obvious hints do not work. Just say it!
10. We don’t remember dates. Mark birthdays and anniversaries on a calendar. Remind us frequently.
11. Most guys own three pairs of shoes – tops. What makes you think we’d be any good at choosing which pair, out of thirty, would look good with your dress?
12. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
13. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That’s what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
14. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.
15. Check your oil! Please.
16. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.
17. If you won’t dress like the Victoria’s Secret girls, don’t expect us to act like soap opera guys.
18. If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.
19. Let us ogle. We are going to look anyway; it’s genetic.
20. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
21. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
22. Christopher Columbus did not need directions, and neither do we.
23. The relationship is never going to be like it was the first two months we were going out. Deal with it.
24. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
25. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.
26. We are not mind readers and we never will be. Our lack of mind-reading ability is not proof of how little we care about you.
27. If we ask what is wrong and you say “nothing,” we will assume nothing’s wrong. It’s not worth the hassle.
28. I’m in shape. – Round IS a shape.

you and me, baby, ain’t nothing but mammals.

mary says:

why appear offline

mary says:

playing secrecy?

lyd| says:

uhuh

lyd| says:

does that appeal to you?

lyd| says:

hahahahahah

mary says:

well

lyd| says:

dont well me

lyd| says:

shut up

lyd| says:

something ugly is going to be typed out

mary says:

i do like some suspense

lyd| says:

and im not reading it

lyd| says:

ah

lyd| says:

aahh

lyd| says:

i see

mary says:

it makes everything more exciting

mary says:

haha

lyd| says:

really?

lyd| says:

how exciting

mary says:

hmm

mary says:

sexciting